Tuesday, April 15, 2008

What's going on now...

Okay, about what's going on now. To make a long story short. I went off BCP last April. We were not actively ttc until about November- December. I started plotting my temp in January and got a BFP on Valentine's Day. Nathan and I could not have been any happier!! We told our family and closest friends but didn't want to tell everyone b/c of the chance of m/c. Well fast forward to my first appt. on March 18. We went in, talked to the dr., he then started the u/s. Even though I had been stressed I was not fully ready for what was about to happen. He put the wand in and started moving it around. I pretty much knew very fast that something was not right. Nathan did not. The dr. showed me the screen and he said ok, here are your ovaries. Thanks, but that's not what I wanted to see. It pretty much was just a blank screen. He turned the monitor off and said this is not good for the pregnancy. I seriously felt as though the world stopped that instant. I looked at Nate sit down and I think I felt worse for him than I did for me. The dr. told me that he was pretty sure that I was having a molar pregnancy and that it is extremely rare. Great, so now not only did I lose the baby but I could possibly be having something that 1/1000 or so women get. What are the chances?? Well, I had my d&c the next day. Got the path results back the following Monday. Turns out I had a m/c in which the baby stopped growing. As sad as we were we knew that it was not a molar pregnancy and most likely we would be able to ttc again soon. So here we are now. Tomorrow will be a month from the d&c, can't believe a month already. I guess we are in the waiting game of AF.

1 comment:

Kristin (kekis) said...

Welcome to the world of blogging. You'll probably find it both therapeutic and entertaining! You should be so proud that you've survived the past month. I know it's probably been the worst month of your life, but I hope the sadness begins to end for you and you both can begin to look to the future.